Integrated living

How to live a life of mindfulness and awareness without disowning society or fearing  the challenges of everyday life.

Words i live by

Integrity: our alignment with our morals and principles are what invoke self-confidence which empowers us to be who we are. 

Loyalty: commitment warrants the utmost respect. It displays our discipline and endurance. 

Contribute to society: if what we are doing with our life is not benefiting others, then why are we here in a world filled with other people? We could live in isolation. Realize that it is never about you, but about us. 

Reasons i love to sweat

Sweat is the result of our effort. Sweat is the byproduct of the heat which energetically cooks the body when we challenge ourselves and elevate to the next level. Effort is the fire that purifies our mind and body. Our actions and efforts burn upward and to balance what we offer, sweat rains and descends down. Sweat is grace. Sweat is the counterpart to the cycle of effort and ease or work and play. The unification of action/effort with sweat/grace brings the balance that I so desperately seek in all aspects of my life. May I work hard and receive sweaty grace. 


Kajuan's recommended Beverages


Red:  Barbera

Blanc: Riesling

Sparkling: Ruinart champagne


La Colombe Draft latte



Rose Chai Latte

chai Latte


Which Asana most connects you to your inner grace? Why? 



Bharadvajasana is an amazing open twist (backbend) and half-bound seated pose. An open twist is similar to a backbend, with deals with exposing the heart, vulnerability and cultivating fearlessness and twisting wrings out of the ego. Seated posts are grounding and connect the practitioner with the earth (to themselves and other beings). Grounding down, humbling oneself, being selfless (egoless) and being fearless is what I believe to be the greatest testament of our humanity. Through my practice I have realized that it isn’t about me. We should live our lives in a way that enhances the lives of others. We should support and uplift each other. 

As a viewer of the pose, it is regal, sexy, taunting and mysterious. As a practitioner in the pose, I feel open, exposed and connected with the something greater than myself. I can sense my body as a divine instrument filled with something amazing, perhaps, the raising of kundalini. I feel a connection through my entire body as well as out of my body.


Bharadvajasana was a dedicated student who spent three lifetimes studying the Vedas as a practice of Jnana yoga. Through his scripture study he was extremely well versed in the text and he spent his life practicing to for liberation from samsara. As Bharadvajasana’s third life came to an end, Shiva appeared to him and explained to why he was not liberated. Selfishness and an egotistical desire for liberation will not allow one to join him. It is through connection, love and generosity that one experiences the love of God (param prema). Bharadvajasana, was reborn and in his fourth life he shared his knowledge of the Vedas with others. He lived his fourth life teaching others the text that he spent three lifetimes studying. At the end of his fourth life, Shiva appeared again as mantras were chanted and Bharadvajasana refused liberation to continue experiencing life as a teacher because he felt Shiva’s love and liberation while living his dharma.In his next life, Bharadvajasana was reborn as a sage.


The myth behind the pose is similar to my life and journey as a practicing yogi. I am practicing yoga, studying texts and teaching asana. The joy and love I feel from my practice is what I hope to share with practitioners who come to my class. I want others to have the opportunity feel the some of the magic I have felt in my practice by leading others in their practice. I am aiming for liberation in my personal practice, but I know liberation for my self means absolutely nothing. “I’m seeking liberation and I am taking everyone with me” is a tagline I say to my friends and teachers.  If freedom from suffering is a goal worth pursuing, surely let’s practice together and get there. We can elevate together. I am giving my knowledge and understanding as an offering to those who seek it. This is my practice of karma yoga. 


How has practicing Yoga affected you and your relationship to the world around you?

Everyone wants to be happy in life, but what does happiness actually mean? Initially, I thought life was about pursuing success. Success and happiness were intertwined. They would be measured by money, power and status, which would give validation of my worth to the world. However, after exposing myself to yoga, my perception of who I am and what my purpose in life was shifted. Exploring and deepening my sense of self through yoga transformed my ideas of success and happiness. 

Yoga has become a lens that allows me to observe my body in relation to my Self (consciousness). It has given me insight separating who I am, from my mind and thoughts. If I can observe my body and thoughts, the qualities that I believe are the essence of who I am, then who am I truly? Who is this observer? By exploring myself, I am finding a sense of freedom and I am able to associate within my mind with clarity and relate to others with compassion.

Yoga helps me remove the veil of isolation. It gives me clarity and deep insight into connecting with the world around me. Life is about connection. It is not about seeing the separation from others, but seeing that we are all the same. To find true happiness, we have to sharpen our understanding of who we are in order to live our lives fully or liberate ourselves from the cycle of suffering. The practice has shown me that relationships (with myself, others, the world and God) are essential to happiness; And with this happiness, I am successful and free.  

25 Questions

1. You’re a new addition to the crayon box. What color would you be and why?

A shimmering black and gray blend.

2. What do you think about when you’re alone? 

Death, Love and loneliness.

3. What’s your favorite song? 

Umbrella by Rihanna

4. If you could be any animal in the world, what animal would you be and why? 

Wolf. They mate for life.

5. What were you like in high school? 

Dramatic and loud.

6. Tell me something about your last job, other than money, that would have inspired you to keep working there. 

My coworkers were friendly.

7.  What do you want to be when you grow up? 


8. If you were granted one wish, what would it be and why?

Everyone were in good heatlh (that includes mental, physical and emotional health).

9.   If you could have any job in the world, what job would that be? 

the wife of a wealthy man. (trust me, that’s a job)

10. What inspires you?

Association with good people.

11. What are you known for? 

Being outgoing and opinionated.

12. What do you work toward in your free time? 

Creating a life I enjoy.

13.  What’s the most interesting thing about you that we wouldn’t learn from your resume? 

I can sing, sort of.

14. How would you convince someone to do something they didn’t want to do? 

Beat them.

15. Who is your role model, and why?

Myself. I look up to who I plan to be in the future and he is full of generosity, love and success.

16. What things do you not like to do?

Listening/associating with liars and cheaters.

17. What’s your superpower?


18. What is your spirit animal?


19. How would you describe yourself in one word?


20. On a scale of one to 10, how weird are you?


21. What is your favorite quote?

All the world's a stage, And all the men and women merely players

22. What would you do in the event of a zombie apocalypse?

Get ready to behead the undead.

23. What motivates you to get out of bed in the morning?


24. Tell me something that's true, that almost nobody agrees with you on.

Yoga is not a therapeutic practice.

25. What would someone who doesn't like you say about you?

He’s rude (which I am not).